I've written this post four or five times now
and that alone speaks to what I'm going through right now.
I am constantly looking for the approval of people.
One of my fleshy flaws is that I constantly want to please people.
It's a flaw to the point that if I think somebody is mad at me,
I will harass them until they tell me, "Stop asking or I will be mad at you."
No lie, that is a direct quote from one of my dear friends.
I even dwell on things I said weeks ago, obsessing over whether or not
I overstepped or offended someone.
Blogging is no different for me.
Through Galatians 1:10 God has gotten a hold of my heart:
"For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ."
He has shown me how grossly disproportionate my priorities have been.
He has shown me how I have worried too much about what other's think.
He hasn't just left me in the muck and mess I got myself in.
He has given me His word and, best of all,
a love for Him that amazes me.
and that alone speaks to what I'm going through right now.
I am constantly looking for the approval of people.
One of my fleshy flaws is that I constantly want to please people.
It's a flaw to the point that if I think somebody is mad at me,
I will harass them until they tell me, "Stop asking or I will be mad at you."
No lie, that is a direct quote from one of my dear friends.
I even dwell on things I said weeks ago, obsessing over whether or not
I overstepped or offended someone.
Blogging is no different for me.
Through Galatians 1:10 God has gotten a hold of my heart:
"For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ."
He has shown me how grossly disproportionate my priorities have been.
He has shown me how I have worried too much about what other's think.
He hasn't just left me in the muck and mess I got myself in.
He has given me His word and, best of all,
a love for Him that amazes me.
Tozer says it well, “To be right with God has often meant to be in trouble with men.”
So, with God's help, I'm going to be more authentic.
I'm not going to sugar coat my life any longer.
I want you to know me.
The real me.
If people in the blog world love me I want it to be for that reason.
So, with that, I am back.
In all my glory:
bad photos, funny videos, sharing too much information
and posts so random even I don't really know what I'm talking about.
2 comments:
Something I definitely needed to hear today.
I care waaaay to much about what other people think of me.
Hooray!
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